Stalking , being a coward or trying to make friends

This morning I feel guilty, and a little bit dirty, I have been poking around on facebook, thinking up all those names that I would like to be in contact with, Nik Gadley, Sara Wogg,( the names have been changed for their privacy) , I have a little look through their friends to see what they are up to by the general theme of things. Nik is, as I expected, arty and cosmopolitan, I sort of feel not interesting enough to be part of that list, Sara is just not there, Christine seems to leave a trace but then it leads to nowhere, very mysterious.



It made me think that very occassionally someone stalks me via the web and that does'nt seem to be a bad feeling, there are very few people that I purposely close my mind to, hopefully they know who they are.



I know that others indulged in the same guilty secret of web stalking, I know this because I contacted someone from the past recently and it became clear as we talked that he had had a look before and decided, as I do myself, that this person would not want to talk to me. On this occassion I made the first move but wouldnt it be great if I could get over myself, and just do it.



Generally my own rule would be, if you feel bad about it then don't do it, I think what I actually feel bad about is being chicken, so I will return to that page and send a friend request, if I recieve a stony silence, then so be it.

morning rituals, the bright side and horoscopes.

The feeling I have to fight is that generally 2009 could be construed as a pretty crap year, wallowing will do me no good whatsoever, it did feel like I had shot an albatros or flattened a few black cats a lot of the time, I am not even going to mention the bad stuff, there you go ........all gone.





I have made a list of the good things from 2009 on my website , already things start to look better. http://www.suegouldart.com/ there are a couple more possibilities that I dare not mention in case I frighten them away. ' the world does not really change, just the way we view it changes'.





I shall continue to follow my morning ritual, 1. read Jonathan Cainer, 2. read my emails then 3. google news, nothing can start before this is done.





I know, as people tell me this frequently , I am normally an intellegent woman, I should'nt be wasting my time with Leo the lion every morning, but actually he just gives out sound advise which would help anybody, mainly about being positive, brave etc etc. and my vanity is always stroked by the possibility of being queen of the jungle every day.

As we are talking happy things this is my 16week old puppy, meggie.